i haven't updated in awhile.. [1] to think that someone built these roads
between us.
cutting mountains and crossing
rivers, connecting things that aren't
supposed to be connected. 
[2] silence is pure.
it draws people together
because only those who are comfortable
with each other can sit without speaking. 
[3] "love is the most beautiful of dreams and the worst of nightmares."
-shakespeare 
[4] a pretty girl hiding in the darkest corner of her mind
where, lies and deception are whispered in ghostly tones
her soul shattered all around like long forgotten promises
silently prosecuted for the regret stained on her bones
sucked into the nightmare of her own broken creation
reminiscing the cold touch of the bad habbits that tore her apart
screaming and crying for the only escape she can remember
a philophobiac with the worst intentions at heart bang bang,you're dead 
[5] that night when you told me
"let's just be friends"
i woke up in the middle of the night
remembered what just happened
and my heart just dropped
and everything thought in the world rushed to my head
and every emotion in my soul flooded me
and every fault I have magnified
and that was the night I think I died 
[6] remember days when we laughed a lot?
those that weren't so good, I soon forgot.
we could sit and talk 'till words were coming out our ears,
not just for days or weeks or months,
but it's been years.
now here they come, here they come;
here come my tears. 
[7] i believe in love lust sex and romance
i dont want everything to add up to the perfect equation
i want mess and chaos
i want someone to go crazy out of his mind for me
i want to feel passion and heat and madness
i want it all. please,dont lie to me anymore 
[8] dont tell me im good enough
dont tell me i belong
dont say you think im beautiful
because i'll tell you, you're wrong 
[9] so i starve myself.
i think i'm ugly and i feel like nobody wants me because of it
and yeah, sometimes i do make myself throw up
because i feel guilty for eating.
and i believe that i'm going to become a fat whore
that nobody likes, and i'll be alone forever
so tell me whats the problem with that?
you know i'm right 
[10]
it's like he's driving in a car, okay, and i just wanna be in the passenger seat, but he's locked the door and i have to hold onto the bumper. you know, i'm not even asking for him to open the door for me, just leave it unlocked and say come in. but no, he didn't do that. so i'm hanging onto the bumper and life goes on and the car goes on and i get really badly bruised and am hitting potholes and it hurts. i mean it really hurts. and yesterday, i had to let go of the bumper because it hurts too much...it hurts too much.
-gilmore girls
[11] he wanted to take his love back from her so badly. the old techniques didn't work anymore.
in fact, they'd never worked. how did you stop loving someone?
it was one of the world's most brutal mysteries.
the more you tried, the less it worked.
-ann brashares
and right there for a minute,
i forgot that you don't love me anymore.
[12]
you and i are meant to be together. period. the end. cue happy-ending music.
-dawson's creek
[13] in life, we learn a lot of things; which movie theatres have cup holders, which classmate is most reliable to cheat off of, how to give & take advice, how & why to love, which roads harbor hidden cops, times to cry or laugh, & which towns have your banks branch. among the most important things we learn is this; just because we argue doesnt mean there's no love & just because we arent related doesnt mean we're not family and i didnt mean to need you then
we were just kids 
[14] For all those times you made me cry,
& All those times I wish I would die
Because I couldn't have you in my life.
Heartbreak should be the least of your worries. 
[15] Over time you'll realize who you really are and what you really deserve.
You'll learn not to settle for someone and to not let anyone take advantage of you.
If only you could realize this before you get hurt.
dont say you didn't love me back
'cuz you know you did 
[16] It happens to everyone as they grow up...
you find out who you are and what you want,
and then you realize that the people you've
known forever don't see things the way you do.
And so you keep the wonderful memories,
but you find yourself moving on. 
[17] He reached for her hand.
"I don't want to lose you."
His voice was almost in a whisper.
She could feel the tears again,
and she fought them back.
"But you don't want to keep me either, do you?"
To that, he had no response.
-Nicholas Sparks this is where i say i've had enough 
[18] whenever a memory pops into your head, you always have to wonder.
how many more times will I be able to remember that?
will I ever remember that again?
how many times can you revist a memory? and you smile like a saint
but you curse like a sailor 
[19] Saying sorry doesn't mean anything.
Its how you treat the person after it.
And after you said it to me you did
the same exact thing over again 
[20] this time, im done
im finished with you
i know i said this last time
but now, i really mean it
i can't believe you did this again
do i mean nothing to you?
yeah...that's what i thought. 
[21] I'll screw up, I'll push you away if we're getting too close.
I won't trust you until you've proven yourself. I won't
cry over the stupid things. I'll laugh until I cry.
I'll be anything but you, and always me. 
[22] I hate when I get so frustrated .
Everything just goes wrong at once,
& I try so hard to fight it. But the tears,
they always come. I'm so scared of falling,
cause once I do, it's fight after fight to get
back up. It could take days, months, years
even. I don't know if I have that kind of
strength anymore.
Please, don't let me fall. 
[23] I think your heart grows back bigger,
you know,
once you get the shit beat out of you.
And the universe lets your heart expand
that way because that's the function of all this pain and heartache
that you go through.
And you gotta go through that to come out to a better place 
[24] so just give me one good reason, tell me why i should stay
cause i don't wanna waste another moment,
saying things we never meant to say. 
that's all for right now
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